Gosh, I really don’t blog enough.

I recently endured a mutual breakup which I feel ended on very positive terms. An honest first for me. I’m such a firecracker that this cessation almost makes me unrecognizable. I mean, I’m a very passionate person but lately I’ve been feeling a whole lot of nothing.
Cliche time: it’s not you, it’s me.
Yes. That’s true. It wasn’t him. He was a gentleman and made me laugh but butterflies came and went. I was happy to be in his company whenever I was. I really liked this guy and I couldn’t figure out what my problem was! All the correct variables were present but the equation never added up.
I spent a lot of the last month reflecting about why I couldn’t give this relationship a pulse. I kept referring back to my last serious relationship which ended catastrophically and essentially ripped my heart out (in the most figurative sense). I noticed a gross difference in my role as a girlfriend. I couldn’t bring myself to sit out on the ledge for the fear of reliving that old nightmare. I was too scared to try.
So I remained uptight and guarded and refused to let up. I’m sure it showed. He told me he felt ‘things had been weird.’ I couldn’t even pretend he wasn’t right. I’m just not ready.
The usually resilient Meghan will now have to sit this one out until she’s ready to be put back into the game. Let’s hope I’m not sidelined for too many seasons.

I have heard 100 women say “I don’t trust men.” I, myself, have also said the phrase countless times. Men can absolutely be dogs, I won’t disagree, but when did we forget that people in general aren’t trustworthy? I’m not trying to win the most cynical award here but I am being a realist. How many times have we ourselves betrayed the trust of our friends or coworkers or even parents? The hypocrisy is resounding when we betray the trust of a loved one to gain the trust of another. It’s completely ironic.

I’m not even referring to extremes here. Sometimes we repeat information we weren’t supposed to, tell white lies to preserve feelings or even willingly omit facts that one would want to know but may find hurtful. We do it for frivolous reasons and don’t even bat an eye at doing so. We have been slowly evolving to become emotionally-selfish beings it seems. 

And I truly don’t believe that its all out of malice, either. I just feel as though some things are no longer sacred, secrecy and blind trust being examples. When it all boils down, I am just sick and tired of the pot calling the kettle black. Let’s just admit it, the trustworthy are few and far between, am I right? So why don’t we all vow to just try a little harder?

xx

Fess up, ladies. We’ve all done it. We are all guilty of breaking this very sacred relationship rule:
Looking through your significant other’s phone.

After admitting I’ve broken this rule myself, I’m going to give you three reasons why this is an absolutely terrible, no-good idea and why I’d never do it now.

1. Why are you looking? Obviously something isn’t feeling right and you should probably trust your gut. Your partner is behaving in a way that is causing you to doubt their loyalty and that’s not a feeling to take lightly. However, snooping is not the solution.

2. No matter what, you’re gonna find something you don’t like. Once you have the mindset that something is wrong, even the most minute, innocent details will most likely cause you some discomfort. It’s almost like a self-fulfilling prophecy; you feel like something is upsetting the balance of your relationship and you’re going to put everything under the microscope until the pieces of the puzzle fit the way you want them to.

3. Where’s the trust? If you don’t trust your partner to have communication with others that isn’t run by you, you shouldn’t be in a relationship. As much as your partner should be open and honest, I feel like you should still be able to maintain some privacy simply for the reason that it’s your right to do so (unless you’re the new Mrs. Cruise). As someone who likes to maintain her independence, this is huge for me. Remember, trust is a two-way street. You’ve got to give it to get it.

xx